Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Mom. I wish you where here with me and could see how big the babies are getting and how adorable they are. We all Miss you so very much and think about you each and every day!!! I Love You Mom and I will be back soon to say hi. You rest for now.

Hey Mom, I just left you flowers and was telling you it's Thanksgiving. Chris and I got our house and got moved in about two months ago. Pops bought his own place in Shady Cove and really misses you! He is doing ok, I try to call him often. I am manager at work now and stay pretty busy. We are doing some remodling on our house and it is fun but hard and time consumming. We have a cute house and got it at a good price. Well, i am going to go for now and I will talk to you soon. I Love you Mom and I miss you so very much!

Hi Grandma,
Just needing to talk to you right now. I just found out one of my friends is in the hospital with internal bleeding, and one of cousin Samantha's friends was murdered. Grandma, I don't understand why there has to be so much death and sickness in this world. Why I have experienced so much already... I know everything happens for a reason, but why does it have to cause so much devastation? Why does life have to be so tough? Will I ever understand these questions? I wish I could hear you talk back to give me a comforting explanation, words of wisdom. I love you Grandma! I would give ANYTHING to be able to talk to you & hug you! I know you're with me and it gives me strength! Thanks for always being there for me to talk to!!! I miss you! I Love you with all of my heart! Rest in Peace Angel of Ours

Hey Mom, We are getting really close to moving into our new house (which i hope you will like to?) Please watch over us these last final days and help us through it all. I miss you you sooo very much and whic I could just pick up the phone and hear your voice or see you again!!!! You rest now mom and I will yack at you soon. I LOVE YOU!!!

Grandma, This is really hard for me because apart of me really doesnt want to except the fact that you really are gone.I try to think of it as if your just away and you'll be coming soon to visit. Although deep down in my heart I know that isn't going to happen and eveytime I think of that it breaks my heart.Whos gonna make me spaghetti like you did know one knws how to make it like you? Things are so different w/out you grammy.Rocenda,Lee and Sherwin miss you so much. But we just try not to let anyone see our pain we try to be strong.Lee even though he won't let you see was devasted when you had to go, he was looking forward to you coming out for Tasha Raes graduation,he would tell me and cenda that you were gonna stay with him he had a chair by the window ready for you so you could smoke your cigarette and watch everything outside. He just doesnt let anyone see his weakness. Cenda and the baby are doing good,she is still w/ Julio and Babyleo is getting so big grandma he looks like lee more and more everyday same lil shit grin(you know the one).He talks so much hes gonna be 3 this year and even though you can't be their in presence you know you'll be in our hearts. Cenda made sure that you have your cigarettes there on your box so you'll never run out. I wish you could have met Shawn (sherwins son) Its like looking at a little sherwin and when him and Leo are together I swear it takes you back to when lee and sherwin were that little and getting into trouble. I know that your watching over us. My birthday was so hard grandma cause you always call me to wish me happy birthday,and I waited all day for that call I would trade anything in the world to have you back with us.Each one of us miss you in our own way even if we have different ways of showing. My heartaches so bad when I have to face that your gone and even though I never said it as much as I should have I love you with all my heart and carry you w/ me every where ans in everything that I do. Its time for you to rest now and I'll keep you updated on all the new things that are going on. I love you so much grandma and miss you more than anyone will ever know.